|
|
|
To Buy Erotic Products click here. 100% discreet billing and shipping.
|
|
Discussions - Gay, Lesbian, Bi, Transgender - View Post - Archive
|
|
 |
|
|
| |
|
Date
|
7/14/2008 4:34:04 AM
|
|
Posted By
|
blondegirl |
|
|
Subject
|
Re: HIV
|
| |
That sounds very familiar. He has just recently began taking meds, and doesn't discuss anymore with me how he is feeling. I don't want to ask; as you said, I can't possibly understand and I don't want to pry or make him feel like I'm smothering him. If he wants to talk to me, I know that he knows I'm here.
He had been depressed for a while and was partying like crazy, doing drugs with some wild new friends he made. I stood back from all that because I knew he was just going through a rebellious stage, trying to reject the reality of his fate.
And I was right, because after a while he straightened up and began a new project. He and his partner (who is also positive) opened a bar together, and now he is working very hard on that, not going out and not drinking even while working as bartender. I think, the bar is his way of keeping busy and doing something that he can be proud of.
But I miss my friend. I go to his bar quite a lot, and we still talk, but it's not the same close feeling we shared before, and I suppose it never will be again. It's hard for me to come to terms with that, because we were inseparable for years. Whenever I was out alone, everyone would say "Where's F"? Whenever he was out alone, they'd say, "Where's H?" We were always together.
It frustrates me a lot, and I can't talk to anyone about this since he swore me to secrecy a long time ago. He doesn't want anyone to know, and I don't blame him as the gay community here is very small and gossip spreads like wildfire. I have no one to work my own feelings through about this, and sometimes I get really depressed.
I guess all I can do is be there for when he wants me to be, and give him the space he needs.
|
| |
To Buy Erotic Products click here. 100% discreet billing and shipping.
|
|
